Field Notes

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Fox returns

Sometimes what you hope happens…happens. The grey fox appears at your feet, offering her wildness. She knows the taste

26 Jul

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Eating a bee

Last May a friend gave me a box of chocolates shaped like bees. Later I took a picture of one

19 Jul

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Someone I never was

The morning shuffle out of the bedroom, the way he pauses at the door hunched over his aluminum walker, looking

14 Jul

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Point of view

Accept the purples the night sky pours out over you, the stars, silvery pins holding it up, the way you

11 Jul

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Button

You still have the button from your husband’s trousers, a bit of marbled-brown plastic, found on the floor,

10 Jul

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Sorrow, visiting

Sometimes, like a breeze passing over you, so subtle not even the tips of leaves and fronds of ferns move,

07 Jul

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Summer solstice

If on phone, turning it sideways (landscape) best displays poetic line breaks. Let this day, beginning in grey light lapping

21 Jun

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Two free hours

There is a moment in a caregiver's journey when hiring help in the home is essential to well-

07 Jun

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A caring rant

I can't tell you how many times over the last 8 years of solo, ever-evolving caregiving, people

26 May

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Homely, lovely

For some it is the light, but for me, the darkness that opens a pathway. I let it pour into

27 Apr

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Evidence

There is a place in the woods below so holy you mistake it for ordinary. Within a universe of redwoods,

21 Apr

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International Haiku Day

In starlight, such peace. Bears, foxes, all come to you. By day, your heart, wild.

17 Apr

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Baring

Standing under a string of satellites, the night, a black kite, I lean out of my body. No wind, no

17 Apr

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In between

How do you measure pain? The hospice nurse offers a range, one to ten. A place on her form wants

16 Apr

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Let's say

Let’s say there is a mountain and many ridges crowned with trees, some naked maples and alders, others spicy-

15 Apr

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Stray whiskers

A bowl of stray whiskers, feline. I can’t decide if they are a collection or an offering. Some are

01 Apr

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Light-eater

"We eat light, drink it in through our skins." — James Turrell, artist & MacArthur Fellow, known for his

29 Mar

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Starfish

All night my mind full of starfish, their bodies a shock of salmon-y red, their bodies succulent hands and

28 Mar